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D.A.R.E. Nation: What I Would Say to My Younger Self About Doing Drugs
My thoughts on the D.A.R.E. anti-drug curriculum that I grew up with & what I would say to my younger self about drugs.
Feb 910 min read


Snapshot: An Addict Remembers 9/11
A story from a New Yorker who was addicted to heroin at the time of the September 11, 2001, terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center.
Feb 23 min read


The Tao Te Ching (道德经): Eastern Spirituality and Recovery from Addiction
Thoughts on the Tao Te Ching (道德经; "Book of the Way"), a Chinese spiritual treatise on flow, balance, and right action.
Nov 23, 20248 min read


Turning 36: Main Character Syndrome Officially Over
Help, I've fallen, and I can't get up! Thoughts on my 36th trip around the sun.
Nov 17, 20246 min read


Xylazine (Tranq) Fast Facts
Key facts about xylazine. a veterinary sedative being added to "tranq" dope throughout the United States.
Oct 12, 20245 min read

In Memory of Zack B.
Dedicated to my friend Zack B., who passed away in 2020.
Oct 6, 20249 min read


Snapshot: Drug Dependence vs. Drug Addiction - A Convenient Fiction
Why I believe that the mythical state of "pure" opioid dependence is really just a prelude to or a less severe form of opioid addiction.
Aug 23, 202410 min read


Opioid Receptor Dynamics 101: Full vs. Partial Agonists, Antagonists, and Precipitated Withdrawal
An overview of mu opioid receptor dynamics that explains affinity, full agonism, partial agonism, antagonism, tolerance, and withdrawal
Jun 25, 202419 min read


Endless Tab: The Grand Total of How Much I've Spent on Opioids Over the Past 15 Years
A run-down of the direct financial costs of my opioid addiction during the past 15 years of full-blown active addiction. I've also estimated
Jun 12, 202413 min read


Rest in Peace, Gabapentin
Gabapentin and xylazine provide a case study of why U.S.-style drug prohibition fails so miserably. I discuss how we can reform our system t
Apr 18, 202411 min read


Six Tough Truths That My Addiction Drove Home
A bar in Harbin, Northern China, a frigid and stunning city. 1. Anyone who says that money isn’t everything is revealing that they have...
Dec 19, 20233 min read


First Step Part II: A Gut Punch to the Soul
First Step of NA / AA: We admitted that we were powerless over drugs / alcohol; that our lives had become unmanageable. I am the first...
Dec 11, 20235 min read
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