Turning 36: Main Character Syndrome Officially Over
Help, I've fallen, and I can't get up! Thoughts on my 36th trip around the sun.
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Oct 125 min read
Xylazine (Tranq) Fast Facts
Key facts about xylazine. a veterinary sedative being added to "tranq" dope throughout the United States.
Oct 69 min read
In Memory of Zack B.
Dedicated to my friend Zack B., who passed away in 2020.
Aug 2310 min read
Snapshot: Drug Dependence vs. Drug Addiction - A Convenient Fiction
Why I believe that the mythical state of "pure" opioid dependence is really just a prelude to or a less severe form of opioid addiction.
Jun 2519 min read
Opioid Receptor Dynamics 101: Full vs. Partial Agonists, Antagonists, and Precipitated Withdrawal
An overview of mu opioid receptor dynamics that explains affinity, full agonism, partial agonism, antagonism, tolerance, and withdrawal
Jun 1213 min read
Endless Tab: The Grand Total of How Much I've Spent on Opioids Over the Past 15 Years
A run-down of the direct financial costs of my opioid addiction during the past 15 years of full-blown active addiction. I've also estimated
Apr 1811 min read
Rest in Peace, Gabapentin
Gabapentin and xylazine provide a case study of why U.S.-style drug prohibition fails so miserably. I discuss how we can reform our system t
Dec 19, 20233 min read
Six Tough Truths That My Addiction Drove Home
A bar in Harbin, Northern China, a frigid and stunning city. 1. Anyone who says that money isn’t everything is revealing that they have...
Dec 11, 20235 min read
First Step Part II: A Gut Punch to the Soul
First Step of NA / AA: We admitted that we were powerless over drugs / alcohol; that our lives had become unmanageable. I am the first...
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