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Last of the Laowai Part II: The Final Resort
Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who spent the pandemic in Mainland China.
Aug 15, 202417 min read


Snapshot: Does Anything Ever Really Change?
"In prosperity, our friends know us; in adversity, we know our friends"
John Churton Collins
Aug 9, 20246 min read


Happy Mother's Day (From an Addict Son to his Long-Suffering Mom)
To the woman who taught me about the Golden Rule and the Rules of Evidence; how to walk the narrow path of righteousness and how to avoid...
May 12, 20247 min read

Off the Cuff, From the Heart
A subscriber who is a fellow writer and who suffers from a mental illness that isn't addiction emailed me with kind words about my piece...
May 1, 20242 min read

Medical-Grade Xylazine Product Review: Pure Garbage With No Place in the Recreational Pantheon
In which I discuss injecting xylazine sourced from a veterinary lab during my wayward youth, which was a lackluster experience if ever...
Apr 30, 20248 min read


How Far Is Too Far and How Much Is Too Much? The Ethics of Mark Laita's "Soft White Underbelly" YouTube Channel
Does photographer Mark Laita's YouTube channel "Soft White Underbelly," which chronicles the lives of addicts and others at the fringes...
Apr 24, 202412 min read


International Love in the Time of COVID: Are "Long-Distance Relationships" Oxymoronic?
Some reflections on what a year and a half of involuntary separation due to the COVID pandemic has taught me about my relationship with...
Apr 4, 20244 min read


Nine Factors to Consider When Choosing an Inpatient Rehab (From a Pro!)
This picture has nothing to do with rehab; it's a seaside resort in Southern China. There are rehabs that look like this, though. On the...
Mar 31, 20246 min read


Detox Playlist to Soothe the Soul (w/ Links and Lyrics)
What to listen to when the heebie jeebies are getting the best of you. These tracks are transcendental, poetic, wistful, sublime: A detox...
Jan 15, 202411 min read


Narco-Karma
Do we deserve the epidemic of addiction that's swallowing the U.S.? Dark thoughts for a dreary day. Beijing hood. I lived around the...
Jan 4, 20241 min read


Enough, Cat Marnell (Book Review)
Cat Marnell competing with yours truly for the Sloppiest Person of the Century Award (photo courtesy of Getty Images). *4/15/2024:...
Dec 31, 202310 min read


I Was Simon Song
This is the first installment of the China Chronicles (aka the Last of the Laowai or any other twee alliterative pair that you'd care to...
Dec 14, 202320 min read


First Step Part II: A Gut Punch to the Soul
First Step of NA / AA: We admitted that we were powerless over drugs / alcohol; that our lives had become unmanageable. I am the first...
Dec 11, 20235 min read


First Step Part I: Serenity, 1 Mg Tablet (Benzo Binge)
First Step of NA / AA: We admitted that we were powerless over drugs / alcohol; that our lives had become unmanageable. Doctor please,...
Dec 11, 20235 min read


What Is Hell?
Is it a fiery pit, eternal separation from God's love, or perhaps just insight into the true nature of things? I have spoke with the...
Dec 11, 20233 min read
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