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Emma Wants to Live: Choice, Ritual, and Focal Anxiety in Addiction, EDs, and OCD
Reflection on the documentary Emma Wants to Live, which follows 18-year-old Dutch anorexic Emma during her final days.
Oct 16, 202411 min read


Xylazine (Tranq) Fast Facts
Key facts about xylazine. a veterinary sedative being added to "tranq" dope throughout the United States.
Oct 12, 20245 min read

In Memory of Zack B.
Dedicated to my friend Zack B., who passed away in 2020.
Oct 6, 20249 min read


Tapering Tips: How To Wean Off of Opioids and Other Physically Addictive Drugs
Tips on managing the physical and psychological effects of tapering off of opioids and other physically addictive drugs.
Sep 29, 202413 min read


Threats from Drug Dealers: How to Tell Who Will Really Mess You Up
Using threatening messages from a drug dealer as a case study of how to assess when you're legitimately in danger vs. when you're dealing wi
Sep 15, 202411 min read


Last of the Laowai Part III: Holes in the Wall, Holes in the Brain
Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who weathered the COVID pandemic in Mainland China.
Aug 29, 202427 min read


Snapshot: Drug Dependence vs. Drug Addiction - A Convenient Fiction
Why I believe that the mythical state of "pure" opioid dependence is really just a prelude to or a less severe form of opioid addiction.
Aug 23, 202410 min read


Last of the Laowai Part II: The Final Resort
Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who spent the pandemic in Mainland China.
Aug 15, 202417 min read


Snapshot: Does Anything Ever Really Change?
"In prosperity, our friends know us; in adversity, we know our friends"
John Churton Collins
Aug 9, 20246 min read

Novel, Rapid Methadone to Buprenorphine (Suboxone) Switch Protocols
Novel, rapid transfer protocols for switching from a full maintenance dose of methadone to buprenorphine in 5 days. With literature cited.
Aug 6, 202412 min read


8 Warning Signs That You're Becoming Addicted to a Prescription Drug
It's a subtle, gradual, insidious process, and if you find yourself identifying with any of the warning signs that I identify here, beware.
Jul 31, 202415 min read


The More I See, The Less I Know: Three Flawed Models of Addiction
Meditations on what I consider to be the three primary models of addiction: The spiritual, the moral, and the medical.
Jul 25, 202418 min read


We Need a Fellowship in Detox / Withdrawal Medicine
U.S. physicians are in dire need of specialized training in withdrawing patients from physically and psychologically addictive drugs.
Jul 23, 202411 min read


75 Dynamic Writing Prompts for Addiction / Recovery Journaling
A compilation of 75 writing prompts related to addiction / recovery, spirituality, and creative writing / fun.
Jul 11, 202411 min read


Are You Dissociating? 18 Specific Descriptions of Dissociative Symptoms
An explanation of what dissociation is, what triggers it, and a list of 18 highly specific examples of dissociative symptoms.
Jul 2, 20245 min read


Opioid Receptor Dynamics 101: Full vs. Partial Agonists, Antagonists, and Precipitated Withdrawal
An overview of mu opioid receptor dynamics that explains affinity, full agonism, partial agonism, antagonism, tolerance, and withdrawal
Jun 25, 202419 min read


Shadow People Captured on Camera: Stimulant Psychosis Screenshots
Curated screenshots of a textbook example of stimulant-induced psychosis.
Jun 18, 20240 min read


Endless Tab: The Grand Total of How Much I've Spent on Opioids Over the Past 15 Years
A run-down of the direct financial costs of my opioid addiction during the past 15 years of full-blown active addiction. I've also estimated
Jun 12, 202413 min read


I Was Never "Normal": What It's Like to Be a Drug Addict Who Hasn't Started Using Yet
I was never "normal."
Indeed, from my middle school memories onward, I recall an omnipresent Edgeâ„¢.
My body didn't seem quite the...
Jun 8, 20247 min read

Jessica Kent: Make It Make Sense (Part 2)
Part 2 of my series on the downfall of Jessica Kent, a prison reform and addiction / recovery YouTuber with over one million followers....
May 28, 202415 min read
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