Endless Tab: The Grand Total of How Much I've Spent on Opioids Over the Past 15 Years
A run-down of the direct financial costs of my opioid addiction during the past 15 years of full-blown active addiction. I've also estimated
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Jun 87 min read
I Was Never "Normal": What It's Like to Be a Drug Addict Who Hasn't Started Using Yet
I was never "normal."
Indeed, from my middle school memories onward, I recall an omnipresent Edge™.
My body didn't seem quite the...
May 2815 min read
Jessica Kent: Make It Make Sense (Part 2)
Part 2 of my series on the downfall of Jessica Kent, a prison reform and addiction / recovery YouTuber with over one million followers....
May 1918 min read
The Selfish Genes That Prospered: The Evolution of Addiction
A humorous take on the history of addiction, including theories explaining why the genes for addiction are so prevalent in modern humans.
May 1411 min read
Suboxone and Methadone Maintenance: Double-Edged Sword or Sword of Damocles?
Why the three "best things" about buprenorphine (Suboxone) and methadone maintenance can be detrimental to someone who is ready to leave...
May 127 min read
Happy Mother's Day (From an Addict Son to his Long-Suffering Mom)
To the woman who taught me about the Golden Rule and the Rules of Evidence; how to walk the narrow path of righteousness and how to avoid...
May 913 min read
Four Key Questions To Answer Before You Book Your First Appointment With a Therapist
Remembering some of my weirder moments in therapy. Presents an overview of CBT, DBT, psychodynamic therapy, and EMDR. Addresses how to...
May 714 min read
The Second-Step Leap of Faith (12-Step Reflections Series)
In which one of the most spiritually defunct individuals of all time, suffering from an unbecoming existential and addictive panic, goes...
May 49 min read
AA Etiquette: What to Know Before You Hit Your First 12-Step Meeting
The vibe of positive personal change, spiritual growth, and accountability-taking that permeates 12-Step meetings is itself an...
May 12 min read
Off the Cuff, From the Heart
A subscriber who is a fellow writer and who suffers from a mental illness that isn't addiction emailed me with kind words about my piece...
Apr 308 min read
Medical-Grade Xylazine Product Review: Pure Garbage With No Place in the Recreational Pantheon
In which I discuss injecting xylazine sourced from a veterinary lab during my wayward youth, which was a lackluster experience if ever...
Apr 2216 min read
At-Home Opioid Withdrawal Protocol: The Detox Essentials
How to make at-home opioid detox bearable. I focus on which prescription and OTC comfort medications are must-haves and which should be...
Apr 1811 min read
Rest in Peace, Gabapentin
Gabapentin and xylazine provide a case study of why U.S.-style drug prohibition fails so miserably. I discuss how we can reform our system t
Apr 142 min read
A Month's Worth of Recovery Slogans Guaranteed to Turn Your Day Around
Even people who ultimately decide that AA and NA are not for them will often find that the maxims of the Program have burrowed deep into...
Apr 105 min read
10 Highlights From Johann Hari's "Everything You Think You Know About Addiction Is Wrong" (TED Talk Review)
"The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. The opposite of addiction is connection." A hundred years into drug prohibition,...
Apr 96 min read
12-Steppers Are Wrong About the Futility of Geographical Change
Any crusty old-timer in AA or NA will insist that geographical change is useless or even counterproductive. Are they wrong? Kapalua,...
Apr 44 min read
International Love in the Time of COVID: Are "Long-Distance Relationships" Oxymoronic?
Some reflections on what a year and a half of involuntary separation due to the COVID pandemic has taught me about my relationship with...
Mar 316 min read
Nine Factors to Consider When Choosing an Inpatient Rehab (From a Pro!)
This picture has nothing to do with rehab; it's a seaside resort in Southern China. There are rehabs that look like this, though. On the...
Mar 2612 min read
Metha-Don't
A consideration of some of the most significant drawbacks of Methadone Maintenance Treatment (MMT), informed as always by extensive,...
Mar 182 min read
What Shape Is Your Soul?
Thoughts on Japanese horror comic book writer Junji Ito's story The Enigma of Amigara Fault. A panel from the story. Check out the full...
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