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Taking a Break
My thoughts on the "two arrow" model of pain vs. suffering from DBT.
Jan 189 min read
Scientific Frontiers: Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS) as Addiction Treatment
Exploring deep brain stimulation (DBS) of the nucleus accumbens as a treatment for refractory addiction to opioids and other substances.
Jan 510 min read
Chemical Blitzkrieg: Four Elements of the Modern War on Drugs That Originated in Nazi Germany
The intriguing history of the Third Reich and mind-altering drugs, including amphetamines and opioids. Based on Norman Ohler's "Blitzed."
Jan 14 min read
Four Scenes, Five Bathrooms, Twenty Years: Heroin Addiction Revealed
Four short scenes depicting the surreal highs and lows of heroin addiction, all of which are based on experiences that I lived through.
Dec 29, 202413 min read
Smooth Seas, Seasoned Sailors: Lessons From Relapse
Tough truths garnered from relapse, including a series of recent slip-ups during my methadone taper.
Dec 15, 202425 min read
Amputations Increase as Tranq (Xylazine) Crisis Intensifies in U.S.; Users Denied Detox
As the veterinary tranquilizer xylazine (tranq) infiltrates the U.S. drug supply, a public health crisis builds.
Dec 1, 20248 min read
What Heroin Feels Like: Three Addicts Describe the Feeling That They Were Willing to Die For
Three addicts describe what it feels like to inject heroin.
Nov 23, 20248 min read
The Tao Te Ching (道德经): Eastern Spirituality and Recovery from Addiction
Thoughts on the Tao Te Ching (道德经; "Book of the Way"), a Chinese spiritual treatise on flow, balance, and right action.
Nov 9, 202410 min read
Big W: U.S. Methadone Regulations Changed!
Details on big changes that SAMHSA has made to the U.S. methadone maintenance regulations in 2024.
Nov 3, 20245 min read
Advice for Parents Who Are Afraid That Their Children Will Become Addicts
Advice for parents who are worried that their child will become an addict.
Oct 20, 202410 min read
B for Vendetta: What Body Brokering Looks Like
Evidence of body brokering, sexual exploitation, billing fraud, and other unethical / illegal practices of addiction treatment providers.
Oct 16, 202411 min read
Emma Wants to Live: Choice, Ritual, and Focal Anxiety in Addiction, EDs, and OCD
Reflection on the documentary Emma Wants to Live, which follows 18-year-old Dutch anorexic Emma during her final days.
Oct 12, 20245 min read
Xylazine (Tranq) Fast Facts
Key facts about xylazine. a veterinary sedative being added to "tranq" dope throughout the United States.
Oct 6, 20249 min read
In Memory of Zack B.
Dedicated to my friend Zack B., who passed away in 2020.
Sep 29, 202413 min read
Tapering Tips: How To Wean Off of Opioids and Other Physically Addictive Drugs
Tips on managing the physical and psychological effects of tapering off of opioids and other physically addictive drugs.
Sep 15, 202411 min read
Threats from Drug Dealers: How to Tell Who Will Really Mess You Up
Using threatening messages from a drug dealer as a case study of how to assess when you're legitimately in danger vs. when you're dealing wi
Aug 29, 202427 min read
Last of the Laowai Part III: Holes in the Wall, Holes in the Brain
Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who weathered the COVID pandemic in Mainland China.
Aug 23, 202410 min read
Snapshot: Drug Dependence vs. Drug Addiction - A Convenient Fiction
Why I believe that the mythical state of "pure" opioid dependence is really just a prelude to or a less severe form of opioid addiction.
Aug 15, 202417 min read
Last of the Laowai Part II: The Final Resort
Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who spent the pandemic in Mainland China.
Aug 9, 20246 min read
Snapshot: Does Anything Ever Really Change?
"In prosperity, our friends know us; in adversity, we know our friends"
John Churton Collins
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