Patsy Crosses the Rainbow Bridge to Paradise

My friend Patsy, a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel who has been a part of our family for almost 13 years, took her final trip to the vet this week.

1 hour ago5 min read

A sweaty, shaky methadone patient (me) explaining the sh*tshow that is and always has been his life.

Video Intro to My Opioid / Benzo Addiction Story + Update on Methadone Taper

Twenty years of opioid / benzo addiction in the U.S. and abroad during the apex of the failed War on Drugs. Update on my speedrun of methadone detox.

Apr 204 min read

Last of the Laowai Part III: Holes in the Wall, Holes in the Brain

Funny and frightening stories from an American expat who weathered the COVID pandemic in Mainland China.

Aug 29, 202427 min read

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Patsy Crosses the Rainbow Bridge to Paradise

My friend Patsy, a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel who has been a part of our family for almost 13 years, took her final trip to the vet this week.

Mad Mutterings

1 hour ago5 min read

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An untitled 1982 painting by Jean-Michel Basquiat that shows an angry-looking skull composed of several layers of heavy strokes in black as well as bright red, yellow, and other colors overlaid on each other; underneath are text and symbolic images

Perfect High

There once was a boy named Gimmesome Roy. He was nothing like me or you. / 'Cause laying back and getting high was all he cared to do. / As a kid, he sat in the cellar, sniffing airplane glue... /

Mad Mutterings

7 days ago4 min read

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A graph showing opioid effect versus logarithmic dose for full agonists, partial agonists, and antagonists

Video: Man in Opioid Withdrawal Explains Opioid Withdrawal

How mu opioid receptors work; what happens to them during dependence / addiction; and what causes ordinary and precipitated withdrawal. Explains receptor dynamics, antagonists / agonists (full and partial), binding affinity, downregulation, and related concepts.

Addiction and Recovery

May 242 min read

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A graph from OrbitMedia that shows the decline in bloggers experiencing strong marketing results from 2016 to 2024.

Four Hard-to-Swallow Truths About Blogging in 2025

Is blogging dead in 2025? The post-mortem.

Mad Mutterings

May 1810 min read

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A guy in his mid-thirties with a poorly concealed receding hairline sits in his mom's kitchen and talks about why 12-Step programs can do more harm than good.

Dangers and Drawbacks of 12-Step Programs Like Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous

I've been extensively involved in 12-Step programs like Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous for a good chunk of my adult life, but I've become disillusioned with them. This video explains why I believe that they can be unhelpful and even dangerous.

Addiction and Recovery

May 111 min read

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